Second Bridal Fair with Friends

2013! This is it! It's for us, it's our year! But what happened to me? Any progress on our wedding preparations?

The start of the new year was not great for me; I have been sick from the 30th of January until the first day of    2013. I was disappointed because I have planned to write my yearly goals on the last few days of year 2012. I have also wanted to cook something special and unique on the New Year's Eve for the family. I have also thought of eating out with my family on the first day of the year. 

None of my plans have been pushed through because of my sickness; I felt excruciating pain in my back and it stretched to my stomach. I felt sick and weak on the first two weeks of January because of fever and chills every now and then. Occasionally, something sharp was piercing my back and sometimes the pain was not tolerable I forced myself not to shout. I could not afford not to report to the office even if I was not feeling well because it was year end and for accountants's working life, year end closing is very critical and busy period.

I began to feel scared because my health condition was not getting any better as months passed by. On October, before the wedding of my dear friend, I had urinary tract infection (UTI) and almost missed attending the big event.  November, I have suffered from pyelonephritis and have to be admitted on the Emergency Department of The Medical City. Few days before December ends, I have high fever and was too weak to celebrate the new year with a bang. And now January, I have a weird feeling of always feeling sick and week.

I am scared because even before my soon to be ex-boyfriend and I start our life together I am in agony because of my health condition.When you plan to spend your life with someone, you want your life to be long enough in order to have more time to build your life together. If eternity is possible, you want to wish for it because no matter how much time you have spent with that special someone, you just can not get enough of him or her.

Realizations? God allowed my suffering in order for me to take good care of myself more. These pains were his way to tell me that I need to be more health conscious, more cautious on my lifestyle. Honestly, I am very thankful to Jesus that he have given me these painful experiences, he have sent me a warning message before my health condition worsened.

At this point in time, I am still in the process of changing my lifestyle in order to improve my health condition. I see to it that I drink eight or more glasses of  water a day. If the situation permits, I drink coconut juice once in a while. I also lessened the intake of any colored beverage, be it coffee, ice tea, juice specially soda.

Thanks to God, I felt better on the third week of January and have manage to see old friends. The soon to be ex-boyfriend, I and the rest of Raissa Republic met with our good friend from Dubai, RR at the Mall of Asia last January 19. He treated us for lunch at Dampa and coffee in the evening at the Starbucks.

The soon to be ex-boyfriend and I have also attended the Getting Married Bridal Fair with the group at the SMX Convention Center. We still have not reserve a date for our wedding so we just look on the supplier's booth during the fair but have not booked any vendor yet.

We have tried Click the Fun Photobooth during the Bridal Fair

Getting Married Bridal Fair Name Tags

To end our day, we have celebrated Chris birthday and have some taste of Mindoro sling at Padi's Point Seaside.

On January 26, the soon to be ex-boyfriend accompanied me at SM Megamall to meet with my high school friends from Singapore, Reynan together with Malou and Venus. On the 30th of January, I had also bonded with girlfriend Ann and Erna and we have a few drinks at Steaks Unlimited with JR.

On the 31st of January, the soon to be ex-boyfriend and  I have also fought again because of some silly things. And you know what? I felt God is talking with me just like how he sent messages for me to take care of my health. On a Friday morning in the office, February 1 in the midst of our (soon to be ex-bf and I) arguments, the first and only yahoo messenger status update of a friend goes like this:

There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts, it is sword that kills.    

Now more than ever, I agree with our VGL Ayie, God is talking to us everyday of our lives and it's up to us if we will turn our head above and will take our time to listen to what he is trying to tell.

My realizations for the month of January? I should be open to changes:

1. Change to a healthier lifestyle
2. Change the way I think on my relationship with my soon to be-exboyfriend
3. Change on my current company's management and processes after the January 17 event (or can it be considered milestone)

Changes here you come!